It was the Saturday night before i left. And off we went for a drink. My mind was pretty messed up. It reminds me of the old day when i first confessed to her. It too happened the night before I left malaysia a few years ago. Can't blame me though, emotion is always so weak before departure.
Anyhow, sipping through the overly-sweetened starbucks coffee, we had a pleasant catch-up with some casual topics. She looks just as what i remembered, or maybe even prettier. Frankly, ever since the "rejection", i have forgotten all the fantasy whatsoever. Throughout the years in university, we rarely chat online anymore. The old days when we were still using ICQ were gone just like that. Or maybe I was seeing another girl in school that time around.
Seeing her again unexpectedly has somewhat awakened my long-lost fondness towards her. It's strange. We are really not that closed at all, never. Given, why do I still have this kind of uneasy feeling? Maybe it's her look, maybe it's her personality, or maybe it's just whoever she is. But what can I do? I am not even physically there if I were to do something. The best I can do is to call her up and tell her how i feel but then she may just laugh off my stupidity? shy off me?
Or maybe I should keep things simple and life goes on.
Day after day Time passed away
And I just can't get you off my mind
Nobody knows, I hide it inside
I keep on searching but I can't find
The courage to show to letting you know
I've never felt so much love before
And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out
But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me?
How will I knowif I let you go?
Night after night I hear myself say
Why can't this feeling just fade away
There's no one like you
You speak to my heart
It's such a shame we're worlds apart
I'm too shy to ask, I'm too proud to lose
But sooner or later I gotta choose
And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out
But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be, holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me?
How will I know if I let you go
The song says it all.
Anyhow, sipping through the overly-sweetened starbucks coffee, we had a pleasant catch-up with some casual topics. She looks just as what i remembered, or maybe even prettier. Frankly, ever since the "rejection", i have forgotten all the fantasy whatsoever. Throughout the years in university, we rarely chat online anymore. The old days when we were still using ICQ were gone just like that. Or maybe I was seeing another girl in school that time around.
Seeing her again unexpectedly has somewhat awakened my long-lost fondness towards her. It's strange. We are really not that closed at all, never. Given, why do I still have this kind of uneasy feeling? Maybe it's her look, maybe it's her personality, or maybe it's just whoever she is. But what can I do? I am not even physically there if I were to do something. The best I can do is to call her up and tell her how i feel but then she may just laugh off my stupidity? shy off me?
Or maybe I should keep things simple and life goes on.
Day after day Time passed away
And I just can't get you off my mind
Nobody knows, I hide it inside
I keep on searching but I can't find
The courage to show to letting you know
I've never felt so much love before
And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out
But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me?
How will I knowif I let you go?
Night after night I hear myself say
Why can't this feeling just fade away
There's no one like you
You speak to my heart
It's such a shame we're worlds apart
I'm too shy to ask, I'm too proud to lose
But sooner or later I gotta choose
And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out
But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be, holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me?
How will I know if I let you go
The song says it all.
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