There's always a time in a year that your monthly expenses just skyrocketed and all of the sudden you feel so poor. My Feb credit card payment exploded because there were so much random expenses like car insurances, motorcycle registration, air ticket to go back home, amazon shopping, car gas (because i haven't had my bike fixed yet, and hopefully it won't cost a bomb), eating out etc. The federal tax return came in time to offset the damage a little but CA state return is still nowhere in sight since CA government is broke too.

While I am glad (or sad) that I don't need to fret over gf/relationship issue simply because I don't have one, my once peaceful mind has been constantly harassed by the "money not enough" thought these days. Is that the reality of life? Money talks? It really sucks if this is what i am going to worry about for the rest of my life because once the "money" has become an issue in your mind, it annoys you on every cent that you gonna spend. Apparently I have yet to understand when people say you can live a wonderful life without being rich. After all, money by and large measures one's success in life. oh well maybe i am just superficial.

I am a grumpy employee now. With no salary increment/incentive, there's really not that much to look forward in work. Another thing is that our upper management has some serious issue. There is this one director that seems to piss everyone off. I do find his way of communication offending, crude, and showing no respect to employee. There was once an technical writer got into argument with this director and few hours later the technical writer was fired. Just last week, amid a meeting, an lady engineer got so pissed, walked out from the meeting room, slammed the door so hard that the room tag fell. Then this director went like "err I am not even serious, i am just joking with her". Though not entirely applying to my group, the picture below somewhat says a lot.


One good pop song, nevermind the crappy lyrics: