Stress to the max. Head gonna explode. Stress in the past was no where near to this. So i thought I have to make this entry.
long story short: POSSIBLE lost of work authorization card. I blame myself for mailing it to school, but by right school mail room shouldn't have screwed it up. How worst could it be? Worst case scenario I would be deported.
Have to cancel the ticket back home tomorrow. I was so sad when I told my parents that I have to do so. I am extremely sorry to disappoint them. I called my mum and literally say sorry to her, heck, I couldn't remember when was the last time I actually apologize to my parents. It is really my fault to have them worried me about all these things. Papa, mama, I am sorry. Muslims ask for their parent's forgiveness during their new year, it never strikes me but suddenly I just think that it is a wonderful practice.
Last night I couldn't sleep at all because of this. Well, I tried to close my eye so hard that I actually feel the pain. No joking. Even with eyelid closed, random thought flashed through non-stop. I know this is not the end of the world but I just couldn't help. All sort of wonderful random thought. I cannot imagine if someday a doctor told me that I have cancer or things like that. Funny huh? not funny at all... Then I think of God. Yeah remember the other day I ranked religion at the bottom on my priority list? Only when I am in despair then I think of God. How shameful is that? God, please slap me!!!
Enough whining. I woke up 9am today (have been waking up around 12 for whole month). I call to cancel my ticket. Call to Embassy to see if i am able to renew my passport here. Call to INS to ask for possible solution. Go around campus mail room and ece department mail room, with the slightest hope of bumping into it, but to no avail.
So yeah, I will try my best to do whatever I can. If things goes bad, I can always go back home, a place where I have been away since 6 years ago. No matter how long it is, I can always sleep peacefully there. That's for sure. And I know I am not the only one feeling super-duper stress here. A close friend of mine recently broke up with his gf. I have been talking to him so much. If you are reading this: yo bro, even though we are facing different problem, I totally feel your pain, ζιΎεε½ and good luck. Best still, if luck is not on my side, I will definitely hang out with you in pg.
long story short: POSSIBLE lost of work authorization card. I blame myself for mailing it to school, but by right school mail room shouldn't have screwed it up. How worst could it be? Worst case scenario I would be deported.
Have to cancel the ticket back home tomorrow. I was so sad when I told my parents that I have to do so. I am extremely sorry to disappoint them. I called my mum and literally say sorry to her, heck, I couldn't remember when was the last time I actually apologize to my parents. It is really my fault to have them worried me about all these things. Papa, mama, I am sorry. Muslims ask for their parent's forgiveness during their new year, it never strikes me but suddenly I just think that it is a wonderful practice.
Last night I couldn't sleep at all because of this. Well, I tried to close my eye so hard that I actually feel the pain. No joking. Even with eyelid closed, random thought flashed through non-stop. I know this is not the end of the world but I just couldn't help. All sort of wonderful random thought. I cannot imagine if someday a doctor told me that I have cancer or things like that. Funny huh? not funny at all... Then I think of God. Yeah remember the other day I ranked religion at the bottom on my priority list? Only when I am in despair then I think of God. How shameful is that? God, please slap me!!!
Enough whining. I woke up 9am today (have been waking up around 12 for whole month). I call to cancel my ticket. Call to Embassy to see if i am able to renew my passport here. Call to INS to ask for possible solution. Go around campus mail room and ece department mail room, with the slightest hope of bumping into it, but to no avail.
So yeah, I will try my best to do whatever I can. If things goes bad, I can always go back home, a place where I have been away since 6 years ago. No matter how long it is, I can always sleep peacefully there. That's for sure. And I know I am not the only one feeling super-duper stress here. A close friend of mine recently broke up with his gf. I have been talking to him so much. If you are reading this: yo bro, even though we are facing different problem, I totally feel your pain, ζιΎεε½ and good luck. Best still, if luck is not on my side, I will definitely hang out with you in pg.
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